It Starts Small

Category: The Journey

  • The emergence of a new Fear

    Every morning I got up before the sun and I was blessed to already have coffee made. My brother in law had to get up really early for work, so there was always coffee. I’d grab coffee and sit on the porch. For the past few mornings I kept having…

  • I just want to eat a donut

    There’s quite a few long term problems from being on chemo over a year. One of the is how it changed my taste buds. Every now and then I get a huge craving for sweets. I’m not some healthy person by not eating sweets. I don’t eat sweets because they’re…

  • Faith?

    When I start on what my son and I like to call the deep dive, I always try and write down everything I “know” about the topic. Then as I study and meditate, I can point out my own errors and sink my feet into God’s truth. This was the…

  • The touch of Truth and the Other side of Forgiveness

    I’d been searching my whole life for relief. Relief from fear, hurt, pain, habitual sin… I tried finding it in my marriage by being a “good” wife. I tried to find it in being a “good” mother. I tried to find it in being a “good” worker. I tried finding…

  • Seeing what we can’t see

    I looked down this line of people. What do I see? It was obvious to see evil. Everything that had been done was done through evil. I was really sad to see almost all of them had those eyes I spoke about in my dream. I didn’t now what that…

  • Bitterness

    Somewhere in the mix of all this someone introduced me to Pastor Adrian Rodgers and the Love Worth Finding Ministry. I don’t think they had good intent when they did it, but God always uses the weapons of the enemy for good. I used a Bible Concordance, a Bible Dictionary,…

  • Forgiveness

    I pondered bitterness. I hated the idea that I knew what wrath was. Anger. Clamoring. Evil speaking. I knew them all because no matter how much I tried to bottle those things up, every now and then, it would slip out. Being on the receiving end of physical, emotional, and…

  • Choke Weeds

    I stood dumbfounded in my junkyard. It couldn’t be that simple could it? Just believe and trust? Wasn’t there supposed to be some great battle…. God was going to slay a mighty dragon and it’d be weeks and months of battling….. Is it that simple? Why can’t it be that…

  • What you can hand can’t see.

    I pondered over imagination for a few days. I had heard some verses that said the heart of men is evil and their imagination were equally wicked. (Jeremiah 17:9-10, Genesis 6:5) I knew that what I created I my mind was an imagination. It was my heart in a way…

  • Touching Fear

    Touching that cloud was like touching a hot stove. I instantly withdrew my hand and shook myself from that place. I knew what I felt. Fear. I have an irrational fear of snakes. In my mind I’m convinced every time I go to my dad’s house they purposely seek me…