It Starts Small

I named by blog it starts small after realizing that before this earth was formed, God had a great idea. He took a bunch of small microscopic cells and created me. He breathed my personality, weaknesses, strengths, and looks into those cells and He saw that it was good and breathed life into me. A purpose was spoken that day. A will for my life was made that day. It started with the joining of a bunch of tiny cells.

God never comes in with a big bang! He never just snaps His fingers and a full on ministry or church is gathered in a huge already made building. No, he starts small in someone before they were even born. He saw the future and He knew he would need me for a particular purpose. Birth was just the beginning. Salvation was the means. Obedience is the blessing.

God started with a simple idea of making a way to remind my kids who they are in Christ and to remember the simple promises that we build our faith on. Then he opened the opportunity for it to grow to beyond my family, and now He’s called it to go even further than the city I live in. A small simple idea, built off the goodness of God.

Obedience is a lifestyle. Its is choices, but it is even deeper than just making the right choices. It becomes a lifestyle. A life of saying your Will be done, not mine. It is without hesitation saying yes to Him, and No to the world. I remember almost a year ago when the Holy Spirit revealed that God had a ministry for us. I could not believe my ears. How, when, who, where….. I was so excited that God had an amazing purpose for our lives. I tried to share this with someone, as you see I mentioned “us.” They refused to hear the truth and continued their own way.

When I got the courage up to speak to them, they wanted nothing to do with what I had spoken to them. I cried hysterically when I got off the phone with them. Not because they were refusing to come home or refusing to allow God to bring rebuilding and healing. Because they flat out rejected and refused God. Through tears pouring down my cheeks, I managed to tell God, he does not want you or believe in you, BUT I do. Father I want to be in this ministry that you are building. PLease do not take away the opportunity because of his rebellion and refusal.

Almost a year later, here I am getting ready to go on a missions trip. I never stopped looking or listening for what God wants from me and my life. I am a living breathing walking testimony of His love, grace, mercy, forgiveness, and hope. That is where this all started. He got me to a deep place of understanding and trusting in Who he says He is. Time and time again He has done incredible things to lead me to this place. WHo am I to say no to Him?

It always starts with something small. A simple yes.

⁸ “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
and your ways are not my ways.”
This is the Lord’s declaration.
⁹ “For as heaven is higher than earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways,
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
¹⁰ For just as rain and snow fall from heaven
and do not return there
without saturating the earth
and making it germinate and sprout,
and providing seed to sow
and food to eat,
¹¹ so my word that comes from my mouth
will not return to me empty,
but it will accomplish what I please
and will prosper in what I send it to do.”
Isaiah 55:8-11

I do not pretend to have some sort of special line of God to really understand everything. I do not profess I know much of anything. All I really have is my past behind me, and a road before me to just be obedient. Just like a year and a half ago, I had a choice to be obedient, I have that same choice today. In somethings, I may only be able to fight from a posture of prayer, but I trust in Him. My hope is in Him. Everything the Spirit speaks and reveals is truth from the very heart of God.

I have had to really rely and trust in Him because my eyes and ears want to measure what the Holy Spirit says with human eyes and ears. I try to lean on the world’s measure, but I have come to understand and trust I will not always know, but it is ok, because God is in control and I put my trust in Him, His unfailing promises, and the purpose and work He has for me!

I thought it would be a ministry set within the walls of a building. I could have never imagined God’s calling would be so crazy awesome! It is my hope and prayer for all my brothers and sisters, in Christ, to realize it always starts small. Small yeses, lead to even bigger bolder yeses.