It Starts Small

Today there will be no cake. No singing happy birthday. No candles, no special dinner, no presents. No fun activity planned. No, today is a day that instead I choose to celebrate my Heavenly Father and give Him the glory, honor, and praise. Before time began, and this earth’s foundation was made, God had an idea. That idea was named Kim. He looked at the timeline of my life and His creation and He said it is good.

Forty-two years ago he breathed life into that idea. I like to believe that when he breathes life into us, it gives him great joy. He knew everything there would be to know about my life. He knew everything! He knew the great physical, sexual, verbal, and psychological abuse I would would endure for years upon years. He never created me to be someone else’s punching bag. He never created me to have my innocence stolen and broken. He never created me to endure abuse, BUT he created me so that one day, I could boldy stand up and say enough is enough. He was not ignoring me all these years. He was not tossing my prayers to the side, He just said not yet.

This last year has been the best year of my life. I was was freed from a false religion, a false belief, and a false hope. I had put my trust, belief, and hope into another person. A year ago, God revealed that person’s true self to me. On this day, this morning, a year ago, he showed me where my hope, belief, and trust had been put and revealed the true intentions of that person. He showed me the true heart, motivation, and character of that person. It was a answer to prayer, and while it took me a little while to accept the truth, once I did, God began to do some great and amazing things in my life.

I had a choice this last year, let another man’s will be done, or choose God’s Will to be done. It does not make sense because when you look it at with the world’s perspective and philosophy, it does not make sense. But when you look through Jesus’ eyes and with His truth is makes perfect sense what God is doing. This last year I was rescued from the prison of fear. This last year I was rescued from abuse and torment. This last year I was pulled from the pit of darkness and set upon a path of discipleship. A path that lead to being able to look back and truly understand all the things in my life was God writing a testimony in me. A testimony to share there is a real hope out there and it’s name is Jesus. There is real transformation of life out there and His name is Jesus.

Jesus.
To live is Christ!
Freedom is Christ.
Liberty is Christ.
Forgiveness is Christ.
Healing is Christ.
Strength is Christ.
Compassion is Christ.
Courage is Christ.
Boldness is Christ.
Truth is Christ.
Transformation is Christ.
Grace is Christ.
Mercy is Christ.

The fullness of Christ is all we ever need! I prayed this morning for more Christ! To have more that he can give to others who are in need. To continue to stand against the powers of evil that rip and shred the fabric of this family, marriage and people apart. To boldly declare my Heavenly Father is the Great I AM. It is HIS WILL be done, not the will of any man or evil. God will and has the victory over all these things. He is writing a testimony of all these things into our hearts to be shared with others who are deep in the pit of darkness, who have no hope. My life is His life and I wait patiently with His endurance. I seek Him in all things and in all things I know he is working. I pray that this next year, he continues to use me in His purpose, Will and that His desire in my heart be magnified to love those who hate me and seek to destroy and to be an encouragement to those whom I love.

Today is not a celebration of my life, there is not much to celebrate. Instead, I celebrate a God who started with a few microscopic cells. God never comes in with a bang. It all starts small somewhere and in someone. He started in me an end the sins of the past to rewrite a new legacy.

That legacy is Jesus.

I do not want to be remembered, but I want my Savior to be remembered.